Aren't I too OLD to have another baby?

So, 2 weekends ago we were doing our bi-monthly grocery shopping trip. This is where we stock up for 2 weeks on supplies like bread, lunch meat, fruits and vegs, and personal care items. I had noticed that I hadn't bought any pads for awhile and I went to grab a big family size pack of Always Plus when all of a sudden I realized, I was 10 days late!


Now, I'm a bit.... um.... older... and so late periods are not that abnormal for me. I've been anywhere from 2-5 days late before and not been pregnant. In fact, just this past May I was 5 days late and in a panic I texted my sis-in-law telling her about it and she laughed at me and said it was probably stress (because I had been dealing with alot that month) and that I should take a test to be sure. So I went out and grabbed a pregnancy test that had 2 tests in it, just in case one came out positive and I had to double up to make sure. (Turned out I wasn't pregnant.)


Anyhoo, 2 weekends ago, when I came to the realization about my pads, I decided to come home and do that pregnancy test that had sat in my top drawer for the past few months. I went into the bathroom and peed on the stick and almost immediately, the test turned positive. I honestly didn't know what to do next. My heart was beating so fast, and I felt.... excited! Could it be true? Am I going to be someones Mommy, again?


I went and layed down in my room so I could think. A couple minutes later my bf and daughter came into my room to tell me we had to go back to the store because we forgot a few things. I said "Ya, ok. Um, we need to pick up a pregnancy test too because this one says positive." My bf gave me a funny look and said ok, and my daughter didnt understand what I had just said.


So we went back to the store, and I went and got an expensive "Clearblue" test. You know, the kind that turns into a plus (+) sign if your pregnant. We got home and I went straight to the bathroom and pissed on the stick.


Sure enough, it turned into a Plus sign right away. There was no dening it. I walked out to the living room and said to my bf "Well, I guess we are going to have another baby." Our daughter looked up at me with quizzacle eyes and so I said to her directly "Guess what baby? Your going to be a big sister. Mommy is going to have a baby."


You should have seen the look on her face. Her eyes and face literally lit up. She clasped her hands together and started jumping up and down and yelled "YESSSS!!! OH MY GOODNESS! YES!!!! I'm gonna be a big sister!"


My first ultrasound is tomorrow. We are all very excited to meet this new baby.

Being Broke

Ahhhhh crap. I'm broke. This really sucks.I usually feel that I'm really smart wirth the small amount of money that I get from the government. I just dont know what happened this month, but Iam already broke and the month isn't over yet. Iam so tired of living my life in poverty. I have started going to school and and am hoping to get my degree in buisness first of all, and then from there I dont know. I cant wait to feel what its like to go shopping and NOT have to look at price tags. One thing I've been learning is to write down goals so here's a short list to start. I can't wait to look back on this list and check things off. Ok, here it goes!

1. Get my drivers lisence.
2. Pay off my jay-walking ticket.
3. Write a book.
4. Join the Writers Guild.
5. Get down to a size 12.
6. Get honors in English.
7. Build up a savings account.
8. Finish my scrapbook.
9. Sing a solo in church.
10. Buy green contact lenses.

Ok, theres my list. I wrote a similar list when I moved into the Dream Centre and it was such a joy to see my list get smaller and smaller. Let me go find it and I'll share with you the actual listy I wrote over a year ago! Hold on.......

"Things I have prayed for"

a house
*Protection(physical) for the baby.*
*Physical healing for the baby.*
*Direction for a career*
*Help in my decision making*
*Assistance in naming the baby*
*A personal computer for writing*
*That my childrens sadness be taken away*
Mom Rindelle, Peter Cardinal, Jim Disterheft and Victor to know Jesus. To become saved.
 

That was my prayer list last year before Raya was born. I was so afraid that she would have medical problems or something.She really should have. But she didnt. All the list that has stars around it were answered. Amazing huh?
Well, cant wait to see this new list come true!
Make a list of your own!