I just got out of rehab. I was living in a christian rehab centre for the past year. You see, I've had "issues" with drinking and drugs all my life. Ever since the first time I tasted vodka, when I was 15 years old. Its so scary to think that my oldest daughter is going to be 15 this year. I totally still remeber being that age. All the thoughts and feelings I had about my super strict parents. How sheltered I was from the realities of the world. SCARY.
Anyhoo, the past year has been hard. And interesting. It was ther first time ever that I spent enough time being sober to find out who I really was. What I found out I had alot of characteristics that I didn't like. Dammit. I had fooled myself into thinking I was such a good person my whole life, only to find out how self centered and mean I really was.
I also realized how hard it was to come under authority. While I lived in rehab I had to obey all sorts of rules that I thought were stupid. I felt almost daily a struggle deep inside me. I learned not to talk back(amazingly enough), and be obedient. Even if the person who was in authority over me was younger than me, and closer to my oldest daughter's age.
I am glad that the year is through. I feel that I have grown in some ways that I really needed to grow. I am now on my own and in my own appartment, but still connected with the rehab centre. Its been a week so far and I gotta say....I FEEL FREE!!!
Wow it sounds like you have been through a lot, had a very tough life. You should be very proud of yourself for getting to where you are from where you have came from. It takes a very strong heart and mind to over come them many obstacles that you have in your life. Being able to over come a drinking problem is tough in itself and not many people are successful, and you not only have over come that but also smoking and one of the toughest drugs to recover from. I am currently a avid drug user hoping that one day I can make changes in my life as you have, find my salvation or savor. You truly are an inspiration to me and give me hope that there is a better and happier life for me out there. Thank you for sharing your story Chris. Cheers to you. God Bless you and Best wishes on your journey to success and happiness.
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