give thanks

http://youtu.be/Y1WmzRxBGFY

Something I've just learned recently is that when I think of, and focus on money(or lack of it!), it makes me unhappy. I worry, and then I start feeling down. Thats so NOT the way God intended for me to live.

But when I put my focus on Him, and all the things Iam learning about who He is, you know, that He will never leave me, He will not stop loving me, and that He will always provide for ALL of my needs, I feel happy, deep down inside. Being able to have faith in something greater than my myself is wonderful. Even on days like today where I got my monthly check, and was just able to cover my monthly expenses, Iam feeling happy. I know that God is the one who made sure my bills got paid this month, and made sure my daycare got paid, and my rent, and my buss pass. Its all ok.

I'd just like to list some things that Iam thabnkful for right now.

Iam thankful that Iam able to go to school for another term, and get one step closer to the life I want for me and my children. Iam thankful that I got funding for daycare, and that my baby loves going to daycare. Iam thankful that I have enough money to buy a bus pass thisa month, and will be able to attend school everyday without worries. Iam thankful that Iam losing weight. Walking my baby to and from daycare everyday has been kind of a pain in the arse, but look at my arse!!! Its getting smaller! And firmer!! Iam thankful that I have internet acess at my house, and that I have a nice pc, and Iam able to look on youtube for workout video's, and make-up tutorials, and hair tutorials!! Youtube is the BEST! I also enjoy going on youtube and watching creepy video's about the Illuminati, and Reptilians,etc. hahaha, I know, I can be such a sci-fi nerd when I want to be. I spent the entire day yesterday watching creepy videos! Anyhooo, back to thankfulness....

Iam thankful that my kids love me, even after I dissappeared for years. I am grateful that they didn't hate me when I came back into their lives, and that they are all allowing me to make up for lost time! SO GREATFUL!! Iam thankful that I have such a well-behaved little baby. She entertains herself well, and she hasn't been sickly, or fussy. She has seriously been the easiest baby I've ever had. And she has an amazing personality. Iam grateful that alcohol no longer controls my every thought, and action. Its actually quite amazing to me still that I have no desire for it anymore. I honestly thouight that if I quit drinking, I would be miserable, and be thinking about it all the time! SO NOT TRUE! I love that I never think about it, or long for it. Same with the meth. Iam thankful that those chains of bondage have been broken. There was a time, not that long ago, that I would not believed that I would ever WANT to quit meth. But it lost it's luster. It lost it's appeal. That HAD TO have been God, opening my eyes to what was real. I'm praying for all the other meth addicts out there, hoping that their eyes too, will open.

Iam thankful that I have unique gifts and talents. I LOVE making things pretty.I am artistic, and creative. I love writing, and sharing my experiences. Iam thankful that I have talents and skills.  Iam thankful that I have learned many lessons from the school of life. Iam thankful that I know how important it is to treat ALLothers, not just the rich ones, or the goodlooking ones, but ALL FELLOW human beings. I think thats something you either know or you don't, and I do. I am thankful that I've been on both sides of the tracks. Iam thankful that its finally summer. Iam thankful that someone gave me a almost brand new stroller for free, and he didn't even know me. Iam thankful that my morning bus driver always says good morning to me and smiles, and tells me to have a good day when I get off. It always makes me smile, and feel good. Iam thankful that I have friends now who like me for who I really am. Iam thankful that I have enough courage to be, and not care what others think of me. Iam thankful that I have 2 more days to watch star trek all day long! haha

I really could keep going, but theres a little baby girl who wants to play with mommy.

I'm thankful for that too!!