So, I took my little Ray Ray out shopping this evening for her very first pair of big girl panties. She has been ready for a couple weeks now, to try some out, but this is the first free moment I've had to take her out. Been so busy getting ready for school, and shopping for myself. She is so happy with her new Dora the Explorer undies, and she looks so cute in them! I just caught her posing in front of the full length mirror, admiring them.
My little pookies is growing up so darned fast. I sometimes wonder if I am doing the right thing by going to school full time and working part time. It seems I only have 2 days a week with her, to teach her things, and show her how much I care about her. I love the way she runs into my arms when I go to pick her up from her daycare and the huge smile that she gives me, when she hears my voice calling her. I am so in love with this 22 month old little girl.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little jelous of my friends and family who have husbands who look after them. I would love to have someone to share the financial responsibility with or simply say, "Darling, let me pay for everything!" hahaha But I am holding out for a marriage that God will arrange for me, where finances will not be the deciding factor for our relationship, but He will be. I want a man that I can pray with, and who will love Raya like his own.
Anyways, I have full faith that all my hard work will pay off for mine and Raya's future. I HAVE to believe. Belief is sometimes all that I have going for me. I am looking forward to the challenges and rewards of 2012, and am excited to blog all year long and one day read back to this day where I was hopeful and sure that God would be working on my behalf this year. I also look forward to the day when I read back and see that my faith in God in finding me a husband all worked out for my good.
Anyways, I'm gonna go watch a movie with my little big girl, and hope that she doesn't pee on me.
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