I started smoking again... :(

I started smoking again. About 4 months ago. It feels like 4 years. I don't know why I even started again. I guess it was the stress of school, but one day, I found myself at the 7-11, buying a pack of John Players. It was like I had never quit. The taste and the feel of smoking appealed to me immediaetly. The only thing I really noticed that it made my clothes and hair stink. At first I only smoked at school, but then I started craving cigarettes at home. So I started smoking beside my open livingroom window, always making sure to blow outside, and then spray febreeze all over my living room, to remove any traces the smoke left in my once fresh smelling appartment. 

Now I just dont care. I smoke all the time. In fact, I'm sucking one back right now. And the thing is, I feel super guilty, but I just can't stop. 

I just needed to get that off my chest.