The Lord is helping me through school. I swear!

Do you know what is soo crazy? Its like some invisivle force is pushing me the direction it wants me to go. Beacsue Iam a faith believeing Christian, I can confindentally call this force, lovingly, of course, God. Iam finding out that things are getting accomplished in my life that I never thought possible on my own. Its such obvious, but simple things sometimes, like math. Now, on my own, Iam terrible at math. There are times during class that I feel that my teacher is speaking Chinese to us. And what makes it worse, uis that it seems like all the other students around me understand, what I don’t, and I can see them out of the corner of my eye, nodding their heads, as the teacher continues teaching in Chinese. Arhhggg!! Crazy. But then, as I say a simple little prayer up to God, truly begging him deep down in my heart, to help me understand, slowly, as if a big flashlight slowly starts to light up brighter and brighter in my head, the Chinese slowly dissolves into English, and I have that “light bulb “ moment. God. Then it’s as if I’ve been figuring out tangents, and dividing side opposite into side adjacent all my life.

School is going better than was possible all on my own!

Thank you Lord!

Introduction to the real me

Well, while I was at school today, I just had an urge to start writing, and I ended up starting to write a book for my children, for them to have one day before I die. Now, I'm not trying to be morbid or anything but there are alot of things that I want them to know about my life, that they don't know right now. I have a teenage daughter and she is definatly getting old enough to understand the things that happen in life, and I truely want her to understand a little about me, and whats motivated me and my past behavior. At my funeral, I don't want them to feel like "Oh my mom was a nice lady. I 'll kinda miss her" I want them to actually know that I was a real person, just like them. I think sometimes we have a fear of appearing real to our children. wE WANT TO SEEM LIKE WE KNOW IT ALL, AND WE DO IT THE RIGHT WAY, ALL THE TIME, AND THAT CAUSES THEM TO THINK WE CAN'T RELATE TO ANYTHING. Thats so crazy, because alot of the stuff I've experienced in life, I would like to share it with them, honestly, and have them know that I DO understand them, and I love them, and that Iam no superwoman. Well, Iam hoping they feel blessed by next piece of writing. Iam still not sure when I will give it to them, but I talked to a publishing company already and know that if I can a write a book thats over 45 pages and I'm wil.ling to pay for it, they can publish it for me. Just for my kids. Maybe one for my little sister too.