A Brand New Day!

Wow. Was I ever depressed last night. It was awful. Just allowing my head to get filled up with doubts and fears. I was seriously almost in tears imagining the very worst that could have happened. All I know is that after I wrote my last post I saw my fears and insecurities right in front of me, in black and white, and was able to acknowledge them. It was so helpful. So helpful.


I know that I am well known for being the positive voice, and in times when I'm not feeling very positive, I almost feel lost. Anyhoo, I know for a fact that a friend of mine was praying for me last night/this morning, and when I got up, I felt really good. I felt positive again. I later checked my fb and found a message from my friend saying she had been thinking about me and praying for me, and more specifically, for my school. She's a student mom too, and understands how hard our life is juggling school and home and kids. Anyways, it was like a big nod from God Himself, saying "Hello my child. I know your struggling and I am here for you. I will help you. I will strengthen you." That's the kind of God I serve.


I have been so delighted today, as I have been catching up in my homework. I realized that I am not as far behind as I thought I was, and that I havn't even missed many assignments yet. I am still in good standing! Such a relief.


It's crazy how fear can INFECT the mind. Fear had me dreading my future. Fear had me scared of failing. Fear had me thinking the worst senerios ever. And in reality, things were not that awful. Praise the Lord, that He is with me, and that He see's when I am struggling. I can't imagine living  a life all alone with no contact with God. I cannot imagine how lonely one must feel, to be all alone in the world. I don't ever want to go back to having no faith in anything.


These days are only doable because I KNOW I have a higher power leading me in different path. When I am lonely I pray. When I am scared, I pray. When I need help studying, I pray. When I need money, I pray. When I need work, I pray. When I need patience, I pray. I guess you could say I pray about everything. And my life shows it. This is the life of a praying woman who believes in God with all her heart. Only good things have come from praying.


Lovin' it.