This morning, at school, I was so incredibly nervous and stressed out. I am behind in all my classes (yet again) and had my driving test this afternoon. Although I did take driving lessons I was still so nervous because ever since my last lesson, almost 3 weeks ago, I havn't even touched a car. So anyhoo...
I went in for my test today, and had to drive my instructors car, because mine isn't insured yet. It was an older, Mercedes Benz, and the gears and parking brakes and controls were vastly different from the car that I did my drivers training in. I was sweating bullets. Thank goodness that my instructor was easy going and made some nice small talk before we started the test, so I wasn't AS nervous when the test began. I pulled out and got a feeling for the car. The Benz has a really soft gas pedal so I had to find that sweet spot where your gassing and braking in a fluid like style. At first it was hard to find, and I lurched out onto the main road like a newbie, but quickly recovered at the next turn, and redeemed myself by making a totally smooth, right hand turn. Only 3 minutes into the test I was asked to do a parallel park, and my days of driving with my instructor came back to me like a warm flood. Step by step, I correctly and expertly eased his car perfectly behind a Gray minivan, and parked. My instructor praised me with a hearty, "Well Done!" and I tried not to let the compliment get to my head.
The rest of the driving test went really good and I was only warned once when I accidentally put on my right signal to pull out of a park, instead of my left. Oooopsie.
As we pulled back into the parking lot, my heart was racing. I parked his car, and watched him making marks on a clipboard. He finally looked over at me with a smile and simply said, "Yes."
"What?! Yes? You mean I passed?" I asked him excitedly.
"Yes. You passed!" he replied.
I lifted up my fists and shook them in the air in a victory arm shake, and whooped! "YES! $700 worth of driving lessons has paid off! YES!" And my instructor just laughed and then showed me my mistakes.
After I recieved my lisence, I started making my way towards the bus stop, and as I was walking, on this gray and rainy day, I remembered to thank my God for helping me reach this goal. I had spent the whole morning praying and asking Him to help me remember the rules of the road, and to guide me in my decisions, and I was amazed and happy that He came through for me. As I was walking I couldn't take the smile off of my face, and I looked up into the sky, where I always imagine God to be, and I whispered, "Thank you God. Thank you for helping do this." As I kept walking I could almost feel His presence with me, and I got a thought in the back of my mind.
I remembered the days when I first really started to believe in God, and would ask for things like rain for a farmer's field, or that I would catch a fish. Juvenile things I would ask for, just to see if God would answer. And the funny thing is, He would! I don't know why, but as you start growing in your Christian walk, asking for redicilous things doesn't occur to you anymore. For some reason you start thinking it's too childish to ask God to do silly things, just for you. But today, I caught myself wishing for God to make the sunshine peek out of from under all the gray clouds, just to let ME know that He's smiling at me. As soon as the childish thought entered my conscience, I quickly tried to push it out of my head, but right at that moment, guess what? The sun suddenly appeared, for a few brief moments, and shone down on me, like I was the only person here on earth. I immediately started crying tears of joy, as I knew in my own heart that THAT WAS GOD< smiling down on me PERSONALLY. I knew it was God. I knew He had me in His sights today. I know my God is real and alive.
I thank Him for moments like this when He makes you feel like you are the only person in the world and that He loves YOU. Amen and Praise the Lord.
What a fantastic day.
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